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Saturday, December 22, 2007
somethings somehow just change
well...sometimes i was really wondering if i should just quit and give up drums hais...it doesn't seems that i'm playing and learning it well lr i'm such a loser as in so lousy which i really try not to be lerh !!i'm like the lousiest la as in i dun even know what the zzzz m i hitting lerh! howi wish i can be like .... let see him play than whoooo clapsss and stuff as iin ya i didn't mean annything but just that i really seriously need to try and pray so hrad that i won't be so easily jealous and all thing whether it is big or small ya jealosuy comes from the EVIL! but sometimes i'm really thinking how can i be better in it and nxt week is drum test i guess i'm going to fail and get low grades for it and he will get like a plus or at least an A or smthg??i dunnoe...i'm like very confuse now!!!arghghg!!!how i wish i can go out of feeling jealous or maybe that's not jealous it is just the fact that what i think abt him being this this this is the movtive nad the fame or smthg he want to get or what i dunnoe hais ok maybe i'm just to sensertive sry.hais.i really dunnow what should i do ansd how m i going to like pass the test or smthg i guess i will have to just shame everything off on what i've learned arghghgh!!!!!!! i dunnow la!!!!!!!!grrrr!!!just a weak learner ): and i'm very confuse now if i get clsoe to A ,B will angry if i get clsoe to B A will say like hint hint me that i'm like getting further to her and like left put her tahn stuff how can i make it 2 close together!? hais...guess no one really understand what i means rite hahahah yar than i really dunno i beleive god wiill make a way!yar endding off )):
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