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Tuesday, January 01, 2008
it is tomorrow!!): i dun want it!!!!!! i dun want tomorrow! how i wish now now the time can stop! NOW and no school equal no conflicts no being throwed by friends no feeling left out no feeling alone nothing is going to affect me if there's no school it is not about the studies stress and stuff and the most impt thing is like having a good relationship with friends and yar i m thinking like what if the new classmates hate me? what if they see me already not happy? what if i always make them irrtated? how can i change to be not hateable?! i really wish that night woudn't come so morning won't come and no wednesday! no school and i really dun want to sleep cos sleep alr wake up and it is morning!!!!!! meaning time for school ): i think all the thoughts is enemy who want me to think that way but how can i get rid of the thinking? than when the thining start coming i'll just cry out like arhghghgh which i dunnoe y!?!?!?! i want the time to stop!!! but it is impossible!! i need to face the reality that who am i and what ppl think of me and the first step is always so hard!!hope that i can skip to the sec step and it won't be hard )): the clock is ticking away and arghhgh!!! tomorrow is getting nearer!!!!! i wanted to go out but no one is there i dun want to be alone at home as in now!!!!!!!! hais..... i duno why am i like that arghghgh listening to jing jing zhua zhu ni! hope i can feel better (: thanks god for everything! and after tmrw i guess everything will be fine ok i'm like trying to think of the bright side ... and i guess i'm having fever now vomitted just now ): yay i hope i'm forever sick so mc the whole year! neverminded i'm talking crap ... byebye )':
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