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Sunday, February 07, 2010
x < 17 years of friendship.

17 years or less of friendship....
it has been runied by me.
It was actually alright but
everytime i see her either chatting happily or busy
doing something i can't be bothered although i needed her to chat with etc,
But it is not her fault to be talking with
other people , i know.
But yet when she's free , i Don't know how to face her
i don't even dare to say hi to her.
I don't know why but
i can't stop thinking about how close we were the past few years.
Whenever i'm lonely or just
standing around alone ,i will look our for her hoping that she will talk to be but
she's always busy ):
I'm not a fantestic friend i admit but
i know she's my most impt friend.
But yet when i see her i wouldn't dare to talk to her.):
Perharps, without or with me around make no differences to you
cause you are always filled with friends around you.
Okay i think i'm jealous?or i just want our relationship to be back as close
or closer (to be positive) like we were last few years.
It has been 3-4 days that we didn't really talk.
We did, but it is just some surface issue.
I think i'm a coward.I want the relationship but
yet my actions dont show that.
I want to talk to her heart to heart but i Don't dare.
I will think of negative thoughts when i see her being with groups
of guys or whatever.
I don't know why we will become like this,But 80% is becaise of me....
but i really don't feel that she cares for me when i'm
sad or having some problems.
maybe she duno how/what happen to be that's why but
don't she sense smthg is wrong when i just leave
without saying anything?
I don't expect any improvement on ur friendship cos
i dunno what to do and i dun think i can mend it.
now what i can do is ...............I dunno i really don't.
I hope she read this at least tolet her know.
Sometimes i wish she can be more agressive and scold
me straight in the face telling me how she feel and etc.
i ...........don't know what to do...someone tell me....


Posted by NAME @ Sunday, February 07, 2010